We were all waiting. For some, they’ve gotten the diagnosis and they’re waiting for surgery. For others, we’re waiting for more tests. But we’re all waiting.
Friday, I sat in the waiting room bare. Bare of not only my clothes but bare of control. There was nothing I could do in those moments to control the outcome of the second mammogram or the sonagram. I was reminded that it’s in being bare, fully exposed and vulnerable that God does his best work. When you give up trying to fix a situation, when you depend fully on God, He never disappoints. So, I prayed as I sat trying to keep my mind off of the “what if’s.”
God had already given me two words for 2017. Change & Courage. The words came at 2 a.m. on December 15. They were so clear. I began to pray. Lord, help me to embrace whatever I’ll need courage for and to face changes with the faith you give me.
God always gives you what you need for the things you’ll face.
“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.” Psalm 32:8
As I pulled in the parking lot, there were so many questions What would I walk out with? What will I have to go through? And then that still small voice of the Holy Spirit……”Christine, you wanted to know me more. You wanted me to use you. This is the path. This is the adventure I’m taking you on to know me more.”
Three hours later, I walked out of the doctor’s office, fully clothed on the outside but still bare and vulnerable on the inside. You see, when you get the words “These calcifications are 95% cancer, and so we’re going to schedule a biopsy”, there is nothing you can do to fix it.
As I drove home, fear gripped me. Is this the beginning of the end? What will I have to go through? What about the Sanctuary we were called to rebuild?
And then that still small voice reminded me of what He told me before I walked in……”Christine, you wanted to know me more, you wanted me to use you. This is the path. This is the adventure I’m taking you on to know me more.”
So, the adventure of 2017 begins. Will you join me? Perhaps you’re facing a medical diagnosis. Perhaps you’re dealing with a situation that has you bare, exposed and vulnerable. Perhaps you’re wanting to know God more.
As I go through this adventure of biopsy, potential diagnosis and treatment, you can journey with me........ with God. Let’s see where He takes us and how He demonstrates all the truths in scripture.
If you’re a prayer warrior, my biopsy is the morning of January 11. I ask you to pray with me the following:
· That I would fully focus on His truth from Joshua 1:9.
· That I would embrace the changes He’s bringing me into for 2017 with courage.
· That God would be glorified and many would seek Him through this.
And, if you ever needed a reason or a "sign" to go ahead and schedule your mammogram, this is it. Don't wait!
Here's to the 2017 Adventure!